Good evening! I pray that this finds you all so blessed. Rhonda thank you
for your kind words, and I am sorry you have missed my ramblings. I am
praying for you in your time of need.

I was baptised yesterday! My friend asked me afterward why I was smiling
like I had just won a million dollars....I'm still smiling! I am so blessed.
Not only am I blessed to have been in the company of some great young ladies
and one gentleman, who I got to pray with before we went in, but I am so
blessed to now count the members of Fellowship Baptist Church my new church
family. I have met so many wonderful, loving people.

Non-custodial moms, I know that some of you, most of you are having a hard
time. The kids in our neighborhoods are all excited, ready to go
trick-or-treating or to carnivals tomorrow, and your kids are not with you.
Honestly, I don't know how mothers who don't know God as their Lord make it
through this. If it weren't for my faith, I'd be so very lost. My friend,
Michelle, asked me last night how I make it through. A mother herself, she
can't fathom one single day without her beautiful girls. I answered her the
same way I always do, "Only God."

It has been one year and 15 days since my ex husband took my babies to
Virginia. 1642 miles, long, long miles...I've driven it twice this year.
Makes regular visitation pretty much non-existant. I don't complain though,
I know mothers, and I love each of you and pray for you continually, who don
t get to talk to their kids, or don't even know where their kids are. I am
so very blessed, and so very greatful, I get to talk to my kids 3 times a
week. Oh, how I miss them, but again I am blessed. You see the Lord gives me
verses constantly to encourage me, to lift me up and to inspire me to keep
on. Psalm 18:1-2 says "I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my
rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will
trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower." Trust
in Him, give Him your pain, and PRAISE Him in this storm. I know it is hard.
My baby girl is a princess again this year, and I don't get to curl her hair
or put glitter on her eyes. My little man is a ninja and I know he will be
so handsome. But I praise God, that they are safe, they are healthy, and
they love the Lord! What more can I ask for?

God is my strength. Those verses say it twice. And He is our ROCK! Rocks don
t crumble. If you feel like crumbling, crumble, just be sure to fall into
the arms of the Rock. He will comfort you in your pain. He will love you. He
will help you through this time. Even if you're not going through the loss
of a child, as the non-custodial moms I write to, but we all face pain and
hard times. We all suffer loss and the Lord is there for you in these times.
So many people have a hard time at the holidays because of loss. Just
remember, He is our fortress, our deliverer. He WILL deliver you from your
pain. He loves you! As I tell my kids, "for always, in all ways." That's how
He loves us, it never ends, it never changes and it is COMPLETE.

Don't forget today that Jesus loves you, for always, in all ways!

I was sitting at lunch today. I sat at Braums, pondering this morning's
lesson and watching the two little girls at the table beside me. The father
took his milkshake and poured some in one cup for the older girl and gave
the rest to the younger. Little sister was not pleased. She stamped her feet
and told her father she wanted her own cup. She wanted her own shake. "I
want it to be MINE," she pouted. The father then lovingly pulled her onto
his lap, set the cup back into her hands and said, "This IS yours, it was
mine, but I gave it to you. It's not mine any longer, it's all yours."

God wants us to be like that father with our lives. He is selfish in that He
wants every aspect of our lives to be His. You can't be loving Him on Sunday
morning and loving the world Monday through Saturday. He wants us to be His,
not anyone else's. He wants us to give our lives over to Him completely, to
say, "Its yours," but this is where it changes, we should say, "It was never
mine to begin with, it was always yours and I tried to do it on my own but I
messed it up. Please Father, take it from me, live it for me, its all Yours.


I wanted so much for so long to live in Christ every single day. I tried so
hard to walk in Him and failed time after time after time. Then I learned, I
can't. It is not possible for me to walk in Christ. I must die. Kaci can
live no more. Then, and only then, can Christ live in me. If I am dead to
this world, then Christ can live and walk and serve in my body. Praise God!

Romans 6:6-7 says, "Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with him,
that the body of sin might be destroyed,

Faith - revisited.

Its funny how you can get something totally different out of a pastor's
lesson if you listen to what God wants you to get from it, something
completely unrelated to what the pastor is delivering to the group. I love
Bill's lessons on the book of Roman's. I am learning every week what it
means to be a true worshipper. Tonight, however, the message I got came in
the middle of Bill's intended lesson. It was another message on faith.

I've hung on to something for a very long time. I've been reluctant to let
this thing go, because I guess part of me used the pain, the anger in some
way to justify some of the sins I was holding onto. "Well, I smoke because I
can't deal with it." or "It's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder." or whatever
myriad of excuses I decided to claim at the moment to justify my obvious
fall. Maybe it wasn't even a fall noticeable by the world, but a fall that I
personally felt chastened for because I do hear God's voice and I knew he
was disappointed.

If you've been with me since the beginning of Kaci's ramblings, you'll
remember my driving for an hour weeping because I hurt my Father. I am
thankful I felt that, I am thankful I know my Father's voice well enough to
feel his dismay at my disobedience. Now is the time for obedience. Now is
the time to let go of that thing or those things that happened to the child
that cannot be changed and must be turned loose. I must grab hold of the
faith that leads to understanding and turn loose of the acts that were
beyond my control. I must trust that those things that were made ugly by man
can be made beautiful once again by the Savior. I must set that anger and
resentment free, thus setting myself free.

In order for the woman to stand in the light of God's love, the child must
step out of the darkness.

Do you have something you're holding onto? Is there darkness in your life
that needs to be illuminated? Let go, let God. If you don't know the Father,
please, ask someone. Email me, call me, call a pastor, go to a church...
whatever you feel comfortable with, but please, don't walk in the darkness
when there is light within reach. If you are a believer, and you need prayer
please let me pray for you.

God bless you tonight,
Kaci

I pray this chilly afternoon finds you blessed!

A friend of mine blesses me with each of her emails. She writes, telling of
awful situations, asking for prayer, and then lists ten blessings. She
reminds me of Romans 12:12 which says for us to be "rejoicing in hope,
patient in tribulation, continuing instant in prayer." No matter how dark my
friends world may seem, she brightens the darkness by seeking God's Light,
by reminding herself of the blessings He has bestowed upon her.

My Pastor has been talking lately about Faith, his timing appropriate, as I
feel like every step I've made the last few months has been made only by
faith. Proverbs 16:9 says "A man's heart deviseth his way: but the LORD
directeth his steps." When I finally learned to let God direct my steps and
stop doing things Kaci's way, the blessings began to rain down on me. It was
scary at first, stepping out in faith. But it was only scary because I let
myself fear the unknown instead of trusting that my Father would be there
every step of the way leading, guiding and directing. I had no reason to
fear, look at how He has provided for me time and time and time again.
Blessing upon blessing as long as I allow Him to guide my way.

In Girl Scouts, when I was a little girl, we played a game. It was a game
of trust, we've all seen it at some point. You pair off and one person
stands in front of the other. You close your eyes, cross your arms over your
chest, and fall backward...trusting that your partner would catch you when
you fall. I trusted my partner...I hit the floor. She was too busy chatting
with the girl next to her and my trust was for naught.

Stepping out in faith is like that game, only one difference....your partner
will NEVER let you hit the floor. If you take every step in faith, never
wavering, never doubting, you cannot misstep. All you have to do is trust
Him. God will never be too busy to catch you when you fall. We all will
stumble, but He will always be there.

Will you trust Him today? Will you let Him light the way for you?

If you need prayer today, please let me know. I love you!

I pray tonight finds you all so very blessed!

Wow, it seems like its been forever since I sat at my desk and rambled. Two
weeks ago, I bade farewell to my home in Amarillo and made a new beginning
in Borger, and oh what a grand 2 weeks it has been. Back in the world, in a
secular job and on my own, in a place far from my comfort zone, new
experiences daily. A friend of mine asked me the other day of this change,
How do you know that it was God that told you to do this? How do you know
when He speaks that its His voice talking?" Other than the fact that I
received more than enough confirmation from God's word and the body of
Christ (the believers around me), I know His voice because I have made it a
point to get to know HIM.

One of my most favorite comedians, a Christian comedian named Mike Warnke,
put it very simply when he stated, "When a teller goes to work for a bank,
they don't learn to spot a counterfeit by studying fake money. They become
so familiar with the real thing that they can automatically spot a fake when
its handed to them." SO you study the real thing until you know it so well
that a fake stands out without question. If you talk with God every day, you
learn what His voice sounds like and when you hear it, you know that its Him


When my Daddy calls me on the telephone he doesn't have to say "Its me, your
dad." I know his voice. So shouldn't it be the same way with our heavenly
Father? Our Father in heaven wants for us to know Him so well that when He
speaks to us we know without a doubt that its His voice on the other end of
the line. He wants for us to talk with Him daily. He is constantly talking
with us. Guiding us. If you don't hear His voice, its not because He is not
there, it is because either you are not listening or you don't know his
voice well enough to recognize it. He loves you and wants to lead you. Let
yourself come to know the voice of your Father so He can light your way.

When I start my day in communication with my Father, I know I will hear Him
when He tells me what I should do with that day. When I let His voice guide
me, then I can lie myself in bed at night, thankful that I spent that day
with Him. How do I know that God told me to do this? Because I know His
voice. I listened to what He has told me to do and He has surely blessed me
in it. I am so thankful for all my new friends, and for all the many
blessings the Lord has granted me this week.

I love you all and if I can pray for you, please let me know.
~Kaci


Kaci M. Boggs
http://knowheaven.tripod.com

~Talking to Christ about others gives us the passion to talk to others about
Christ! (Author Unknown)

I am so blessed! One week in the wilderness and the manna keeps raining down
I pray this message finds you all equally blessed. My first week in Borger
has been strange, new, different, difficult, wonderful, and exciting...to
say the least. I am finding my way around, settling into a routine, and
growing even stronger in my daily walk with our Lord. I am pleased to be
able to say even though I have to get up 2 hours earlier than what I was
used to, God is helping me to get up every day with plenty of time to start
my day in fellowship with Him.

Finding myself back in secular employment has not been easy for me. I
appreciate those of my friends who have lent an ear and a shoulder on the
days when I found it hard. I thank you for reminding me to praise my King
through the storm. If you had told me a few months ago that God was sending
me back into the world, I would have called you a liar. But a few months ago
God knew I wasn't ready for it. I had to do some spiritual growing up.
Pastor Alan Burkhalter from a small Baptist church in Amarillo told me once
that "God doesn't call the equipped, He equips the called." God was
preparing me for this new chapter and I pray that I follow Him and bring Him
glory in this transition. Please keep me in prayer as I continue to find my
place in these new surroundings?

I am getting settled into my new home a little at a time. Just when I think
I'm almost there, a new crisis rears its head but I am persevering. I am
meeting many new wonderful people at Fellowship Baptist in Borger, and I
miss my friends at Trinity so very much. Those of you in my yahoo groups,
thank you for checking on me, I feel so loved and missed, my Internet should
be back on in a week or so. Those who live in Amarillo, remember, Borger is
only 45 minutes away, drop me a line if you don't have my address and come
visit me???? Also I am getting Baptized the last Sunday of October and would
love to see some friends and family there. (To those of you asking
yourselves why I am getting Baptized again: because I come from a church
other than Baptist, I am getting Baptized again to join this one...seems
fitting anyway, with the rededication I have made in my life to the Lord.)
If you would like to attend, please let me know and I'll let you know when
and where.

I love you all and will be writing ramblings regularly again very soon!!
Please let me know if I can pray for you!!