I got away from this blog for some very silly reasons but I am back. Over the next few days I will be updating the look of the site and getting back to why I originally started writing this thing. If you're been here a while, say hi?
Sunday, August 23, 2015
I have no idea if anyone still reads this blog besides the thirty people a day who come here looking for my article about saving my wood floors. Gosh, it seems like a hundred years have passed since those floors. It certainly has been several lifetimes ago. So much has changed but I'm still here. I am considering revamping this blog and getting it back going...
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Monday, August 12, 2013
I Corinthians 13: 4-13. As Christian women, we love this section of the Bible. It is the topic of countless memes sent via Home Interiors decor, email quotes, Facebook images and more. It is the romantic hope of our Prince Charming as young ladies. It is Spiritual food during those first few years as a young wife. It is a standing ground during many late night arguments, pleas for marital attention, and early morning meetings with the Father (sobbing, on our knees).
Some of you have noticed I've been silent for a while. Wedding plans stopped, life took an ugly turn for the worse, and I found myself in a dark, desolate place in my life. . . but here we are. God brought me back here. Back to this place where I seek Him through prayer, through study, through writing - and then - I share it with you.
In less than a year I have been at the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. I have been planning a wedding, charged with a crime, incarcerated, sold everything we owned to start a new life, separated from my husband, moved (at least) three times, been through an amazing Spiritual and emotional training, donated a kidney to save the life of a stranger, and reunited with my love. It is an understatement when I tell you that it has been a VERY. Long. Year.
I believe that I had come to a place in my life where I had become Spiritually complacent. I was leaning on my husband's Spirituality instead of seeking the Father's face on my own. During my brief incarceration, my sweet Jesus sent me gentle reminders that He will do whatever it takes to beckon me to be with Him. This passage is evidence of that.
We are taught as children "God is Love." So this verse is not just about the warm fuzzy romantic emotion that young women pine over, but it is the attributes of our Bridegroom as He waits for us to seek Him. It is no surprise or accident that it starts out with "Patient". The Greek word for this is μακροθυμέω, or makrothumeō (pronounced mak-roth-oo-meh'-o), with a Strong's number of G3114. It means "to be long spirited, that is, (objectively) forbearing or (subjectively) patient: - bear (suffer) long, be longsuffering, have (long) patience, be patient, patiently endure."
"Patiently endure." Wow! He patiently endures as we choose everything and everyone but Him. He has called us and we have committed ourselves to Him and yet He stands patiently by as we seek out our own wishes, wants, idols, and - even worse - the world.
As I think back, during my trials this past year, I have been anything but patient. I remember begging God for just a glimpse of what He had planned for me. The conversation went something like this:
Me: Father, can You see me? Don't You know this hurts? Don't You realize that I can't handle this. I know You love me and You don't want me to go through this kind of pain, so are You even watching?God: Yep.Me: Really? That's it!? That's all You have for me? Why won't You show me what You have planned for me? I NEED to know.God: I have.Me: Huh?God: Check it out in Jeremiah 29:11 or Psalm 46:10Me: Yes, yes, I know You have plans for me, and, BE STILL and know that You are God. Oh. Wait. Ohhhhhhh. That's what You have planned for me, right now. Just be still. Just trust in Your plan. Ugh, that's so easy. It's so hard. But it's so easy.God: Yep.
Maybe your conversations with the Father don't sound quite like that, but me and my Jesus, well we're cool like that. I don't know what's going to happen. My gorgeous husband has just begun a new career as a truck driver and the thought of him being gone for weeks or more at a time is nearly crippling right now, but one thing I know is that God created me in His image AND God is love AND Love is patient. . . .so I can be patient. I can be still and just KNOW that HE. IS. GOD.
If this touched you in some way, or if you have a need that I can pray for, please feel free to comment or send me an email. And K.M. in FL: I am ever constant in prayer for you, C and M. Thanks for reaching out to me. I love you and so does He.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Today I want to tell you about something in my life that has nothing to do with sewing or crafts or my house, just life. Ugly, nasty, painful life....and healing. You see, some of you know that I haven't had the greatest life. It has been hard and it has been ugly and I carry with me some pretty painful scars.
I have to be honest that I have carried blame for some things that happened in my past. I have used my past as an excuse to not participate in my life. Some things had hurt me badly enough to create "tapes" in my head that are set on terminal repeat and beat me down. They echo years of self doubt, mistrust and loathing. I sign my blog every time with a reminder that YOU are worth it, but I live my life with the beleif that I am NOT worth my own love. How crummy is that?
What's worse? I didn't even know most of this stuff was even there. I needed someone who I could trust to point them out and when I finally got tired of being beat down, depressed and shut down, I reached out for that help.
That help came in the form of a program called Pathways. Pathways is an amazing experience-based training that takes place over a four month period. I have just started and let me tell you, it has already changed who I am and who I want to be. I know that I want to love me, I want to find the strength to stand and find joy within my own perception of me.
I am going through this journey with 37 other people. THIRTY-SEVEN hurting souls. THIRTY-SEVEN broken hearts. My friends and I need a little help, if have it to spare. We need your love, your support, and your prayers. Please keep us in your thoughts for the next several months as we battle our inner pain, demons, whatever you want to call it and learn to love and accept ourselves. We would truly appreciate it.
Also, this is not an inexpensive experience. The next step, the Walk, it $800, plus 5 nights in a hotel, and meals. Most of our group is all set, but a few of us are struggling to make this next CRUCIAL step a reality. If you are in a position to help someone LITERALLY save their life, please reach out, send me an email or visit the Pathways Website and click the Donate button. If you choose to donate via the Pathways website, please be sure to email me so that I can give my name and class number so that the wonderful staff knows which class needs to receive your donation.
Thanks for reading, thank you for your prayers, and thank you for being here with me through this amazing journey. And if you need help, if you are hurting, depressed or considering ending your own life, please reach out to me??? Please let me share this amaznig tool, this amaznig gift from God with you? It just might save your life.
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