Kaci's Ramblings

Good evening! I pray that this finds you all so blessed. Rhonda thank you
for your kind words, and I am sorry you have missed my ramblings. I am
praying for you in your time of need.

I was baptised yesterday! My friend asked me afterward why I was smiling
like I had just won a million dollars....I'm still smiling! I am so blessed.
Not only am I blessed to have been in the company of some great young ladies
and one gentleman, who I got to pray with before we went in, but I am so
blessed to now count the members of Fellowship Baptist Church my new church
family. I have met so many wonderful, loving people.

Non-custodial moms, I know that some of you, most of you are having a hard
time. The kids in our neighborhoods are all excited, ready to go
trick-or-treating or to carnivals tomorrow, and your kids are not with you.
Honestly, I don't know how mothers who don't know God as their Lord make it
through this. If it weren't for my faith, I'd be so very lost. My friend,
Michelle, asked me last night how I make it through. A mother herself, she
can't fathom one single day without her beautiful girls. I answered her the
same way I always do, "Only God."

It has been one year and 15 days since my ex husband took my babies to
Virginia. 1642 miles, long, long miles...I've driven it twice this year.
Makes regular visitation pretty much non-existant. I don't complain though,
I know mothers, and I love each of you and pray for you continually, who don
t get to talk to their kids, or don't even know where their kids are. I am
so very blessed, and so very greatful, I get to talk to my kids 3 times a
week. Oh, how I miss them, but again I am blessed. You see the Lord gives me
verses constantly to encourage me, to lift me up and to inspire me to keep
on. Psalm 18:1-2 says "I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my
rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will
trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower." Trust
in Him, give Him your pain, and PRAISE Him in this storm. I know it is hard.
My baby girl is a princess again this year, and I don't get to curl her hair
or put glitter on her eyes. My little man is a ninja and I know he will be
so handsome. But I praise God, that they are safe, they are healthy, and
they love the Lord! What more can I ask for?

God is my strength. Those verses say it twice. And He is our ROCK! Rocks don
t crumble. If you feel like crumbling, crumble, just be sure to fall into
the arms of the Rock. He will comfort you in your pain. He will love you. He
will help you through this time. Even if you're not going through the loss
of a child, as the non-custodial moms I write to, but we all face pain and
hard times. We all suffer loss and the Lord is there for you in these times.
So many people have a hard time at the holidays because of loss. Just
remember, He is our fortress, our deliverer. He WILL deliver you from your
pain. He loves you! As I tell my kids, "for always, in all ways." That's how
He loves us, it never ends, it never changes and it is COMPLETE.

Don't forget today that Jesus loves you, for always, in all ways!